So, a little history for those who may not know. I have always had a heart for adoption, it doesn't matter what it was. Dogs, snakes, horses, (cough, cough)... Cats and yes, even children. Pretty much, if it was lost, lonesome, and lonely, I wanted to love it and give it a home.
After getting married, I didn't think about adoption much. Within 6 months of being married, I was pregnant with my first child. I LOVED pregnancy! No morning sickness, no back pain... I just waddled around fat and happy for 9 months. About 3 years after Brittney was born we decided to go for one more. Admittedly, numerous times I thought about adoption but since I'd proven child bearing was possible, I didn't broach the idea with the hubby.
After 6 months of not getting pregnant, I thought, AH HA! adoption!! Well, I have to say that this idea did not go over so well with the then-hubby. My heart was already in China and he flatly refused. He didn't want a child that looked "different" than us. So, in an effort to get my way, and of course I always do, I decided to negotiate on the China aspect of the adoption and look at other countries so that we could still adopt. I will admit that at this time, I wasn't seeking God's will, but rather trying to satisfy my own heart's desire.
Lucky for me, and everyone else, my God is bigger than me, and bigger than my plans. Lucky for me, and everyone else, my God knows my hearts desires and isn't going to let me settle for anything less than what I truly want. As I was going about making my adoption plans, somewhere in the Southern most portions of China there was a woman who became pregnant. And at the same time, I became pregnant too. So much for adoption..... for now.
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